Starting Over…

So, lets start all over again. It has almost been a year since I last posted about something. I believe it was about work and how angry and stressed out I was but this time maybe it will be different. A lot of things have happened since than… I’ve actually quit that theatre and I’m working at a better place now that pays a little more and believe in separating personal and work. Once I am done working… it’s time to just be at home and be with me no work is to be involved.

Enough enough!!! Please check this band out and give them a chance to imprint on your heart and soul.

This is Amazing!  When you hear his voice… its really refreshing. There’s something with his voice that makes is awe and feel at ease.  ”There’s a side to you that i never knew…never knew…”

Enjoy!

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Business as Usual

Business as usual as you would say to any one who have asked how you have been or what is new. I never seem to have the idea of what to say when people ask me that. Seriously… what exactly has been new? Or what exactly that has been happening in my life? Honestly, I don’t think I have had much adventure in my life recently its always has been and maybe… just maybe… it will be just work. I can be wrong.. I could have so much happening in one day I’m just blinded by the goals that I had set for myself. Survive today.

Today, I don’t have a clue what exactly (just like my other posts, ha!)  I want to write. It’s been a while since I had been blogging. I mean… February is a while. We’re just rolling into the beginning of Summer Vacation for most people and business should be increasing along with tons of turn overs for companies. I have recently started looking for a new job I have applied to a total of 14 places. Three have contacted me via email to inform me that I was not a fit for their position, how depressing. But than again, I have a pretty stable job that keeps cash rolling in bi-weekly but recently it is not enough. I do exactly the same thing over and over again. I want a new environment… no… I NEED a new environment for my health and sanity state.

Maybe I’m having a mid life crisis.. but I’m not THAT old….

Writing in the corner of my bedroom…

Spea[K]indly

Tags: as, business, crisis, life, mid, splice of Life, usual

The heart.

Your mind tells you all kind of lies to protect your heart but your heart will never lie to your mind no matter what.

Tags: heart truth love follow

To Twitter or not to Twitter?

So, I am doing an global question to all my cyber friends and local strangers out there who use twitter. I have a friend who doesn’t have Facebook and has suggested me to use Twitter. However, I don’t really see the point of twitter and neither can he answer my question. Basically, I need you twitter folks to help me out and give me a pro and con and if it is worth the while!!

Cheers,
Spea[K]indly

Tags: twitter what is the point

Down Time

I don’t know what is up with me lately but I’m now tired. No, no! Not the “my-body-is-exhausted-tired” but its the “I’m tired of life” kind of tired. I’ve been working 6 to 7 days straight… I love… well at least I use to love my job. But i don’t anymore. Maybe I’m going through a phase right now. I don’t know what about my work that makes me so tired. I hate it.

One thing I know for sure is… I’m tired of having a crush on someone. I’m tired of always looking for the brighter day when Its exactly how it is. I’m just tired of it all. I want something new. I think I might just leave. I might just leave Vancouver. I’ve been here for so long, been doing the same thing over and over again, and been in the same house for AGES!

I understand that life isn’t easy. I understand that everyone goes through almost the same degree of saddness, joyful, and regret. I’m having a hard time accepting it though. I’m having a hard time loving the people I use to love.Its bitterful. If that’s a word.

As I was driving home from my 8 hour shift, which felt like years, I think I have thought of why I may just be angry or sad or whatever that is making me feel not myself… I think its trust.

I don’t really have that anymore. Trust isn’t in me to give anymore.

Tags: angry, bitterful, job, quit, tired, trust, work

Trust me…?

If you trust me..then trust me and believe that I will protect everything that you tell me. If you can’t do that? Then don’t ever tell me how you feel cause if you can’t trust in me to keep what you need to be protected.. how can I?

Tags: protection, trust

Emotions

Today was my freedom from crazy emotions. Finally, do I ever feel soo free! I can’t believe that its been a year since I’ve been feeling soo tied to unexpected things. Thank you all for sticking by me. My true friends!

 

Spea[K]indly

Tags: emotional